I can still smile :)

I had planned on blogging more frequently than this, but due to pregnancy aches and pains and financial issues etc etc I've not really had anything interesting and positive to post.

But today someone very special made me smile...

Basically, my pregnancy wasn't planned and K and I hardly knew each other. A relationship was never on the cards, it wasn't what either of us wanted, and K was due to go travelling, and then he was going to live elsewhere in the country. But then I found out I was pregnant. He ended up coming back to the area to support me after only 2 weeks of travelling, but he was homeless and jobless. The past 7 months has been really difficult because we've both had our lives turned upside down. He's been doing his best to support me though, which can't be easy because I've been hormonally emotional quite a lot and he hasn't known me long enough to decipher whether my moods are just hormonal, or if there's something we do need to work out. He's also had lots to deal with, and after so many years of believing he couldn't have children, he's struggling to come to terms with things. Especially as the baby isn't here yet, she's not real to him, and he said it won't sink in properly until he sees her. While he's doing everything he can to support me; the cooking, washing up, tea and hot-chocolate duty, carrying my shopping, making hot water bottles for my bad back etc, he can sometimes be quite cold with me when I need emotional support, and it means we're still going through lots of ups and downs.

But today he came back from a job interview and told me that he was asked what his greatest achievement is, and he told them it was that he's expecting a baby in August :D